Keeping track of things I said / Will this haunt me later?

More than likely, what I said here will not be known by anyone that I know, at least not intentionally. That is my intention, actually; some of the things that I say or write here, I am usually very uneasy to unravel in person. Is this the comfort of anonymity?  I cannot say otherwise, you know.  I have no real close friends to speak of (at least close enough to reveal my all), I do not want to go to a psychiatrist (although seeing a shrink may help me in getting things off my chest), and I do not think I will reveal anything to my girlfriend, for reason that… I will get to later, if I can.

That was actually one of the things that I wanted to write about.  Have I talked about my girlfriend before?  She is in a country across the Pacific, and we have some moderate language barrier that probably will not be overcome.  I have no idea how far along (or serious) we are, and seeing as I will not be visiting my home country anytime soon (which she happens to be living in) and I do not know when she will be visiting stateside, it is a long-distance relationship that has a very questionable fate, although she seems to stick around me longer than any American girls would…

But have I talked about this before?

I am quite terrible at keeping track of things.  What I have said earlier in this blog could be said again (and again, and again…) and I would not notice because I am basically using it no more than like a journal, at least for now… but was that not what how I intended to use this, like a discovery / progress journal?  Nonetheless, the thought of me repeating everything like a broken record is unsettling.  I do not like it, not very much.

And despite revealing this blog to nobody in particular, I still feel scared of someone finding my real identity—do not get me wrong, I rarely speak wrongly of anyone or leave any scathing comments (I heard one too many horror stories of those who said too much with their names revealed or tracked down), but I feel that some things are still better left unsaid… which may be true, but which may also go against the intended purpose of this blog.

So I am split—how much do I diverge here?